New body of work.
A series of 15
Photography copyright of Agata Cardoso
Sunday 22 September 2013
'Dancing with you' and other ways to deviate from the norm.
New body of work.
A series of 15
Photography copyright of Agata Cardoso
Rot.Black.Strap /////
New stickers.
like being a kid again...........
Photography and performance copyright of Agata Cardoso.
Tuesday 30 July 2013
Rags and ruin.
And art will set me free.......................
Photograph of P J Harvey, sourced online
Tuesday 25 June 2013
Thinking of....MK-ULTRA, project Monarch and mass mind-control......
Journal pages copyright of Agata Cardoso
Everyday I feel like I am walking into the void //////
No neurosis, no psychosis, no psychoanalysis.....and no sadness.
Journal pages copyright of Agata Cardoso
Another muppet is dead, the house is burning////we have no home........
journal pages copyright of Agata Cardoso
Thursday 13 June 2013
So she said im 'splitting'.....the pains of Dissociative amnesia ///
Dissociative amnesia (formerly psychogenic amnesia): the temporary loss of recall memory, specifically episodic memory, due to a traumatic or stressful event. It is considered the most common dissociative disorder amongst those documented. This disorder can occur abruptly or gradually and may last minutes to years depending on the severity of the trauma and the patient....
So I'm thinking all this talk of a dual diagnosis of borderline personality disorder and post traumatic stress disorder could just be the result of 'programming.' I'm no bloodline, but I had a hand in my knickers and a fist in my face many times.........
Artwork copyright of Sharon Kivland.
Wednesday 12 June 2013
Yeastie girl ////////
The opening night was extremely busy, the gallery was packed full and it also featured the ‘Don’t Stop Me Until…’ performance from Agata Cardoso. Agata’s performance lasted for around 30 minutes and featured the repetitive behaviour of the artist eating a ribbon whilst naked, with a metronome ticking away, aiming “to slow everything down, mind, body and raise personal conscience and awareness to bring out emotions in people that they would not usually experience or feelings and emotions they do not usually like to confront”. Agata succeeded in stopping people in their tracks, mesmerized by, and questioning, what they were watching in this corner of the gallery. I really loved her performance and the direct dialogue she created between performer and audience was intense, captivating and important.
By Emma Buggy
www.cultivatevynerstreet.wordpress.com
I'm too sad to tell you.....
Bas Jan Ader.....lost at sea 1975
Performance still copyright of Bas Jan Ader
Monday 10 June 2013
Thursday 16 May 2013
I got through it with morphine and tramadol ////
My insides felt like they were going to burst. keyhole surgery, lots of morphine , Tramadol and codeine .
Photograph copyright of Agata Cardoso.
Tuesday 14 May 2013
Self-medicating and the hell that is comming off Benzodiazepines....
I have been in NHS out-patient rehab for 1 and a half years, detoxing off Valium and xanax . I was discharged on the 8th of April 2013.
The last appointment I had was a medical and a discharge, they took my piss, they took my mesurements, blood-pressure and weight, I refused blood tests, I was fucking sick of feeling like a lab-rat and prescription drug junkie.
FUCK YOU
I was suffering, I had been suffering for the last three weeks. No sleep, panic attacks and anxiety, loss of weight, hallucinations, mania, agoraphobia, claustrophobia, muscle contractions, rapid heart beat, hot and cold sweats, tremors, clammy hands and the depression....the despair and the suicidal ideation....I really wanted to die.
Coming off benzo's is like a hellish existence, where you are aware that your whole life was foggy, clouded...and everything rolls away into different directions. You forget who you are and what you were, you almost need to start again, you question reality and generally question everything. Things pile up, you lose control, it all becomes too much.
When I told the Doctor that I could not leave the house and that my life, university and my art was suffering, she looked at me blankly and said, " So you are working towards something?" I wanted to punch her.
Journal copyright of Agata Cardoso
Spit me out, shut me up////////
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Performance copyright of Agata Cardoso.
Photography copyright of M.Lazaro.
Tuesday 29 January 2013
'Don't stop me until'.........My performance piece....
I have cut my bloody lips from the raw starchy ribbon,my mouth swells.It is sore.
I have bruised knees and hips from falling around.
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"You are ALL HYSTERICAL!"
"You are All Hysterical, fools!"
1. group CATALEPSY using a lark mirror (1890)
Images sourced from the book: The Invention Of Hysteria:Charcot and the iconography if the Salpetriere. By Didi Hubermann.
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